Heeheeeheee, i'm back :)

And i'm happpppy, so yay for that :D

So text me or watever now :)

ohh yeah, anyone fancy a shopping trip???

SOMEONE won't with me (you bitch gregory!)

READ!!!(important)(ish)

Riiiight.

Hopefully the people who need to read this can and will.

Spread the word if you see this, and tell them to read it.

I'm going off the radar for a few days, for many complicated reasons.

Don't get annoyed if i don't reply to your texts or whatever,

I just need a few days thinking time, to sort some stuff out.

I should be back in touch by around wednesday hopefully.

Maybe a bit earlier.

If there is something you really really need to ask me/talk to me about, then do.

I won't be that evil lol.

But it's unlikely you will.

Anyway,,, BYE.

Have a good few days!xxx

is it true...

a) my eyes are always sad, even when i smile?
b)i'm never completely happy?
c)no-ones ever heard me say "i love you" and meant it?

I have...

1. Pink hair : (

2. a job : 0

3. a bestest friend who is a guy : )

4. 3 bestest friends that are girls : )

5. a Greg : D

My favee is the last one : )

loveee you gregory, mon lievre : )

x

WHY CAN'T I GO FOR A WALK IN THE RAIN ANYMORE!?!

Okay seriously, I went for a walk in the rain, just for some peace and quiet.

Well, anyway there was some pretty torrential rain, which i hadn't expected.

I was kinda wearing short shorts, uggs(not waterproof :s ), and a jacket. 

That was it.

And then some idiots come driving up to me and are like "excuse me, where's bozeat?"

So I'm just like, "here.", and give him the "you are an idiot" look.

Anyway, so they drive away and everything's okay.

Then they come back the same road, so I'm thinking these guys are pretty damn stupid.

Then I had a proper look a them, and they're these 2 17-ish year olds (I'm not gonna lie, they were pretty cute(that was for the females reading)).

Then one of them goes "how old are you?"

So I was like "15".

And then he says "oh."

WHAT KIND OF A RESPONSE IS THAT???

Oh, i'm sorry, how thoughtless of me to not have been born a few years earlier.

Please, take it up with my parents.

TWATS.

Anyway, I guess it just pissed me off that I can't even go out for a walk anymore without having my age thrown in my face?!?

Jesus, its bad enough getting it from him.

RAH.

I'm bored of some people, y'know.

I'm how the fuck I am.

You want me to change, you can fuck the hell off, alright?

For Christs sake.

Yes, I say a C and a B in English is shit.

Deal.

I have better expectations than you, clearly.

Its not my fault I'm cleverer than you.

So seriously, fuck right off.

And I don't care if I look like Lily from behind.

She's a really nice girl acctually.

But I guess some people still can't see through appearences still.

And just because you only just noticed I wear my hair like that sometimes, doesn't mean I havn't before.

So fuck off.

I'm bored of being friends with you.

You're always the fucking same.

Lighten up.

The effort is too great.

I don't fit in anywhere.

I've learnt not to care.

Now I guess, I just learnt not to bother trying.

So don't expect a smile anytime soon.

Enfin...

Mon Dieu!

Son Incroyable!

Je ne peux pas avoir même une petite petite chienne de quelqu'un, qui serait parfaitement justifié, parce qu'elle l'a commencé !

sans les gens qui tout d'un coup obtiennent façon a impliqué plus qu'est nécessaire ! 

De toute façon, je planifie sur faire des achats avec elle, et cela tout triera, parce que, comme n'importe quelle femelle sait, les courses tout résolvent.

Donc oui, nous formerons bientôt, donc vous tout peut fermer s'il vous plaît.

Merci.

Weell...

Its been a whiiileeeeee.

Soooo anyways, some things have happened recently that have made me thiink.

Something Ellen said to me today was...interesting.

Miscommunications can be,,,hard.

Especiaaly when you don;t know how you feel.

Speaking of feelings, hhad a conversation with Nicole last night.

She hit a nerve there.

Mainly because I don't know if she's right or not.

Grrr confusion.

A lot of people are pissed off with me.

But tbh, i know what you think and you're wrong.

If you're being like that then its the opposite.

Yeahh well anyway...My dumbass brother fell over yesterday...

get this...he managed to not only hit one side of his head on a door, but then bounced off it into another door and cut his eyebrow open.

RETARD.

SOPEFOLUWA.

Screaming that down a corridor is funner than expected :)

ALsooooooo some people can get over the fact that i dont trust them...you should do the same cos its not gonna chaange.

GREG, its the mentalist soon :D yayyy.

Ciao :)

ffs.

How about you fucking grow some?

Or better yet, MOVE THE FUCK ON.

Nothing is ever going to happen.

Like Ed said, EPIC FAIL.

And this isn't directed at who everyone thinks.

He's the only one who is being sensible ffs.

So stop being fucking dicks for christs sake.

I think you'll find i'm going to fuck whoever i damm well please, ok?

And I don't care if you think that i'm overreacting.

Because its fucking irritating having  to explain to people reading stuff over your shoulder.

Ed

SHANE WILLIAMS IS FIT.

That is all.

Oh wait no it isnt.

He's going to decorate my new walls, along with Tommy Bowe.

Now that is all :)

:)

I just thought I'd say...

Is it just me, or is there a lot of couples atm?

Usually theres only about 1 couple.

I swear theres likee 5 atm.

Lol. Anywayy...

Ellens was immense.

Why has noone put photos up yet?

Well, clearly because you have lives. :)

Alsooo i love Tommy Bowe.

Just thought i'd throw that out there.

And Shane Williams ofc (HAHAHA ED)

Ohh yeahh speaking of Ed.... I KNEW!

HAHAHA I KNEW.

Well not that i dont know everything.

Which freaks some people out (HAHAHA JIMMY)

Got to love freakin people out.

Seriously though, Do i have a trustworthy face or something?

Cos i swear people always tell me stuff. :S

oh well lol.

Ohh yeah, and one last thinggg.

(L)MUNSTER :)

angry

You know, people can be such dicks sometimes.

Why is it, you can't go shopping with your brother in a wheelchair without people staring at you?

You'd think people would learn some fucking manners.

AAAAAAARRRGHHHHH.


Sorry, that just makes me really angry.

So please for the love of fucking god, next time you see a person in a wheelchair,
Think about whether or not you'd like to be stared at for your whole life.

CAST PARTY.

BEST FUN IVE HAD IN AAAGES.

I have a new sister...who is amaaaazingly fun and coooool.

Managed to have alcohol, and not break my promiseee, so ITS ALL GOOD.

And unlucky girls, but she sure as hell deserves him.

x

JESUSSSSSSSSS.

Haaaaad a goooood rehearsal today.

and yesterday alsoo.

TIMEEEEES.

Only downsideee is that i may need to learn a dance in less than a day, cos someone sprained their ankle :/

Alsooooo, wtf is wrong with mrs bruuuuuuuuuun?!?

Temple scene top?!?!?!?

WTF?!?!?!

WOOPWOOP for Herods dancers thoughh.

AMAZING COSTUME(if a little whorish)

Oh well could be worse, i could be pole-dancingg, ey Cosby? ;)

OH HAPPY DAYS...OH HAPPY DAYS!

xD

that is all.

LY xxx

JESUSSSSSSSSS.

ellen

scares me.

what are you going to do you crazy child?

If you ruin this i will never ever speak to you again.

That is a promise.

x

.

RAH.

France just beat Wales.

Sorry, David :(

Anyway...back to what i was going to say.

Ever felt there was something that was left unsaid to someone..?

That you want to ask someone...but there is never the right time?

That you just want to say, and wish that there would be no repercussions?

OK...here we go...

I want you to text me, email me, facebook me...whatever...

And start with this sentence...

You said you would tell the truth, so tell me...

And then ask me a question that you want the truth to.

i swear to my grandpa's grave, i will tell you.

And because I'm feeling generous, you can have as many as you want.

x

boooored.

5 best friends?

ahhahah. 

AS IF.

Ok...so:

People you would tell that you're pregnant?

1.Ellen

2.Parve

3.Jazz

4.Greg

5.Husbaand

6.Labo

7.Nicole

8.Andy

9.Freddie

10.Rosie

So that really doesnt help.

I think having just one really good mate is stupid.

youre not gnna stay with them forever.

which is also the same for boyfriends tbh.

there is pretty no-one in this world you can trust.

everyones out for themselves

which is fair enough.

but yeahh.

even if you are one of my bezzies, i dont trust you that much tbh.

sorry.

this world is fucked up, not my fault.

x

BOOM.

Well...yes I have new hair.

So far people seem to like it, which is good.

Its kinda slightly red :/

But hey ho, at least its not orange..:O

And ofc there is the Latex.

loooooool.

Can I pull it off then?

Missyou David...

LOVEYOU.x

ELLEN

I cba to wait till monday.

Just put photos up now.

Its not that exiting/noticable.

x

OASIS&SHOPPING

I've just had the best two days.

Ok, so it starts on tuesday...

Get up SOOO early (for me) and then have to spend till 2 at mi madres work, doing homework :/

BUT THEN...

Got to Oasis...Surprisingly...I wasn't the last person!

Well anyway, loads more people than i expected turned up,

I think there were 10 of us...

Was pretty damm jokes.

Rape...rape...STEALTH RAPE!

Anyway, yes there was a lot of rape going on.

Got really tired, so made David drag me around...

Cos moving was effort.

Then said goodbye to David, Parveen and Harris, and went to Jazzs.

Tried to watch Memoirs of a Geisha...got bored.

Ate pizza... YES WITH CUTLERY!

Watche russell brand..LEGEND.

Went home with ellen...

disected the dayy ofc.

SLEPT.

Got woken up reaaal early again...

Went to the hairdressers with ellen.

Had hair re-dyed.

Ellen got her layers re done.

That women was waaay too obsessed with straightening hair.

Went SHOPPING!

Met up with Parv.

Went into New Look.

Laughed at chavs.

Went into Topshop,

decided randomly to try on random stuff.

tried on latex...

Discovered that actually i look pretty good in latex

Discovered contrary to my mothers belief, i can pull off red and yellow.

Discovered that ellen cannot do pink.

We're going on a latex hunt...

oh look, theres a topshop!

Cant go under it, 

cant go over it,

We'll have to go through it!

pahahahahahahahaa.

So yeeeees.

There are many photos of us in changing rooms, which ellen has.

put those upp sooon.

Bought LATEX and a new top from topshop.

Muchos bene.

Then had a horrific meal with brothers friends...

hahahah my mother.

"How did we not slap her?!?"

hahahaha. genius.

Took Ellen home...

SLEPT.

Got woken up by my brother yelling :/

Off to do the history...again.

BYE.x

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Welll....here I am, sitting at my mothers place of work.
She has THE most exiting job everr.
Or possibly NOT.


So anyway, I am going to complain about stuff.



Ok...well I was on the phone to Ellen.
And we were talking about something that really irritates us both.

Its basically people can't take bitching.

I'm sorry, but this is just stupiud.

Its just things like this...

"Oh, thats really stupid" or whatever...

So then you defend yourself and are like...
"Oh, well not really because...etc."


And see at that point, personally I would have a go back.
Thats fine with me, people have different oppinions, so thats completely fine.
But I would argue my point, wouldn't you?


But no, some people don't.

Some people just say
"Oh, I wasn't having a go or anything."
or
"Oh, I was just joking."


NO YOU FUCKING WEREN'T JOKING.
YES, YOU WERE HAVING A FUCKING GO.
STOP BEING SO FUCKING FAKE.
IF YOU ARE GOING TO BITCH,
THEN DO IT PROPERLY!!!


If you have a bitch at me, then i'm not going to take it personally.
I will probably have forgotten it by the time we meet next.
But if you do something like that, then i will remember.



Ok, so now that you've read that...
If you are one of those people...

I am actually begging you...Do not say that to me again, because i will actually lose it.
And yes, maybe this blog was directed at you...

SO GO ON, HAVE A FUCKING GO AT ME!
PLEASE!!!

Don't be a fucking pussy about it.
I'm not gonna come and knife you, just because we happen to disagree about something...
(exept you, greg)



Ok, rant temporarily over.

ly.x

RUGBY 2 (ireland(L))

IRELAND(L)

BOOM.

we are amazing.

dont try and deny it.

Ok...these guys are all amazing...

Brian O'Driscoll (L)

Ronan O'Gara (L)

Tommy Bowe (L)

Luke Fitzgerald (L)

Rob Kearney (L)

Also of course...

Gorden D'Arcy (L)

Girvan Dempsey (L)

Jamie Heaslip (L)

Shane Horgan (L)

Geordan Murphy (L)

And love to the rest of the team.

IRELANDS CALL(L)

x

RUGBY 1 (wales)

The next couple of my bogs will be about RUGBY.

Ok, starting with WALES.

Firstly, just to annoy Tydesley...

SHANE WILLIAMS.

(welsh winger)

This guy is truly amazing.

He was the IRB international player of the year in 2008.

He is Wales' top try scorer.

He has scored 43 tries for the Ospreys, and 45 for Wales.

Also...he is really cute. ;)

Ok...Some more Welsh players that I like...

Andy Powell-Possibly the strongest man alive. It takes at least 3 people to get him on the floor.

Ryan Jones-Captain. Always manages to find something to cry about, without fail.

James Hook-wierd cheekbones.

Gavin Henson- ORANGE.

Lee Byrne- Cute. Also a tres good player. Hard to knock put as well, even with an illegal tackle, Geoff Cross!(scottish bastards)*

Mike Phillips- I see what you mean, David.

Leigh Halfpenny- hahaha. He's funny-lookin.

Martyn Williams- NUGGET. Webster, you got fuckin owned. Thats what you get. (scottish bastards)*

Ok, that is Wales done.

*for explanation of (scottish bastards) please watch this video...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aw0a45QaoHc&eurl=http://rugbydump.blogspot.com/2009/02/webster-and-cross-head-knocks-vs-wales.html

More rugby teams soon.

x

bonjourno

Well Bonjourno to ye all.

Tis the half-term.

Woopdy-doo.

I have decided that Greg is very much intelligent.

I should stop complaining about all the bad things about my life.

There are many things that are very right about my life.

These include...

It s half-term, therefore i get to sleep more.

I'm going SHOPPING soon with my bestest mates.

One of my friends IS GINGER.

Xbox with David manages to cheer me up no mattter what.

MSN with Greg also manages to cheer me up no matter what.

I am planning to glue myself to Greg and Andy, so they cannot leave. And I mean Glue literally, with SUPERGLUE!

(L)JAZZ&JACK(L)  (all that needs to be said on that subject)

Quote of the week.

Labo:"He;s quite fit for a white guy"

Hannah:"I'd Do him anyday"

Labo:"I wouldn't say no"

pahahaha.

its funny, cos of the person we're talking about.

x

awkward.

omg.

just had the most awkward/embarrassing JCS rehearsal EVER.

i swear for most of that rehearsal:

a)He was staring at me.

b)I was a horrific shade of red.

SO NOT ATTRACTIVE.

and Labo and Ellen really helped...

I can honestly say, they have never been that unhelpful.

OK, but seriously now, if you are about to watch a video of someone hugging a snowman half-naked,

you really would check if someone was behind you...

i mean what happens if your mum/dad is behind you, hmmm?

its just common sense.

But apparently common sense that SOME of us lack.

I am actually sooo embarrassed right now.

Of all the people ffs.

Also another thing for you...

Just because your friends are complete twats, doesn't mean you have to be one as well.

can i just say...

it doesnt matter if you arent photogenic (yes i am directing this at you)

because you happen to be stunningly attractive in real life.

and more importantly, you are also rather nice.

now see, for me this is rather much more important.

i may spend every possible second adjusting my appearance,

but it does very little.

you put a little effort in, and suddenly i cant move for people asking me to get them in there with you.

um...also something ive never said to you, but always wanted to.

im sorry for the cinema that time.

that really wasnt fair of me.

i guess i was just jealous.

so im really sorry for that.

also im sorry for saying you'd become big-headed and that.

truth is...i wished i could be like that.

because yours isnt a mask like mine.

ly.x

Insanity in the snow...

This one's by Ed, my brother lol.

Can't work out how to put other one up yet.

I'll try again laters.

Also, my mum would like you to know that if you put this on facebook/youtube/whatever she will kill you.

Lol. Cos she's as reasonable as me.

But seriously don't bother.

x

this one is by my dad.hahaha.

you are all dead...

*cough*

Hannah the snowthing?!?

One has the strangest feeling, that when one finds out the whole story, it shall be most displeasing.

One would also like to comment that the persons responsible for this "snowthing" will be FUCKING MURDERED IN THEIR FUCKING BEDS.

That is all.

miserable.

I hate living so far away...

I mean it wouldn't be so bad, but unfortunately for me, my parents still think i'm 7 years old.

Seriously, I must be the only 15 year old to have never gone on a bus on their own.

I mean...FOR FUCKS SAKE!!!

Its not like i'm gonna get fucking kidnapped or raped!

And I hardly ever get to go out with my mates.

It really wouldn't surprise me if they just stopped bothering to ask, cos i can never go anyway.

This is the conversation I had with my mother yesterday...

Me: Can I possibly go to park tomorrow with ellen and that?

Mum: No. 

Me: Ok, thats what I thought.

Mum: Then why did you bother asking? It was pretty pointless.

Me:It wouldn't have hurt to ask.

Mum: Well there was no point bothering.

Me:

See, that is my point.

Its not like i'm some crazy, drug-addicted, crack whore for fucks sake.

It just pisses me off.

I miss everyone.

Hopefully the snow will go away, so i can actually see some people.

x

SNOW DAY.

SNOWWW.

I am tres happy.

i love snow.

So much i bet my mum that i would go out in it wearing very little.

that was a mistake.

i think i may have frostbite.

oh well.

ME&MY BRO HAVING A SNOWFIGHT!:)

AND THEN THE BET LOL.

check out the photos on my faceebook.

i cba to load them onto this...its taking longgg.

x

blehhh.

Has anyone else noticed...just when one part of your life starts to go ok...the other part collapses magnificently....

Soooo anyway....

Life sucks.

My mother and my mates gang up against me.

Someone hates me enough to steal all my stuff.

I miss someone loads and loads.

Well, actually thats 3 people I miss.

Even though I saw 2 of them today.

Although its unlikely I'll ever see the 3rd again.

What with her being dead, and everything.

I miss my hubby.

And gregory...

Ever have that feeling when you really really want a hug from specific people...

But they're nowhere near you.

I hate it.

I hate quite a few things.

But probably not you. :)

x

J'AIME CA. (part one)

THESE ARE THE BESTEST BUDDIES EVER!

GREG.x

ELLEN.x

HUSBAND.x

JAZZ.x & POOLEY.x

LABO.x & COLEYY.x

PARVEEEN.x

FREDDIE.x

More soon, promise.

If you're not in this one,, then you're probably in the next one.

xxx

random complaints/memorys to keep.

I feel sick.

Permenantly.

Its gay.

As Sope said..."Hannah, you're the one thats going to end up in casualty"

And of course he was right.

I don't think things through enough.

Whats the point in taking sides with people, when everyone ends up ignoring you.

Life is stupid.

I don't fit in anywhere,

At least not properly.

I envy Jazz&Pooley.

I know they hate it but...they're the cutest.

And the bridge thing would probably happen.

JCS earlier...Poor Nick.

Felt soo sorry for him.

She was proper harsh.

Back stage was hilarious.

(L)Nick&Jimmy doing the lassoo.

Me, Rosie, Nick and Jimmy doing the Soul Girls dance...only freestyle...

;)

(L) all my friendsss.

Actually (L) to the whole world.

i mean...why the fuck not?

xxx

MSN conversation avec Davidd.

HAHAHA.

All that needs to be said.

(L)

PEANUTS&LEGS.

ALSO...2centimeters?

Personally i thought it was inches...

;)

EXCUSES EXCUSES.

literally.

That is all.

(L)Husbandd.

BEST WEEKEND EVER.

For reasons unknown to many people I had the best weekend EVER.

Friday after-schoool was sooo joookess.

Had a maaaasssive laugh avec Sope.

And then SATURDAY.

Had a looong msn convo with myy bestest mateee.

In which we becameee even better friends somhow me thinkss.

ANYWAY...

long story short.

I am majorlyy happy right now.

:D

LOVE YOU.x

Heartless.Just remembered.

I just talked about something that i havent for aages.

But i was listening to this song at the same time.

And it kinda fits.

Only replace She with He,Woman with man...etc.

Kanye West-Heartless.

In the night, I hear 'em talk,
the coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road, he lost his soul to a woman so heartless...
How could you be so heartless?
Oh... How could you be so heartless?


How could you be so, cold as the winter wind when it breeze, yo
Just remember that you talkin' to me though
You need to watch the way you talkin' to me, yo
I mean after all the things that we've been through
I mean after all the things we got into
Hey yo, I know of some things that you ain't told me
Hey yo, I did some things but that's the old me
And now you wanna get me back and you gon' show me
So you walk around like you don't know me
You got a new friend, well I got homies
But in the end it's still so lonely


In the night, I hear 'em talk,
the coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road, he lost his soul to a woman so heartless...
How could you be so heartless?
Oh... How could you be so heartless?


How could you be so Dr. Evil, you bringin' out a side of me that I dont know...
I decided we weren't gon' speak so
Why we up 3 A.M. on the phone
Why does she be so mad at me fo'
Homie I dont know, she's hot and cold
I won't stop, won't mess my groove up
'Cause I already know how this thing go
You run and tell your friends that you're leaving me
They say that they don't see what you see in me
You wait a couple months then you gon' see
You'll never find nobody better than me


In the night, I hear 'em talk,
the coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road, he lost his soul to a woman so heartless...
How could you be so heartless?
Oh... How could you be so heartless?


Talkin', talkin', talkin', talk
Baby let's just knock it off
They don't know what we been through
They don't know 'bout me and you
So I got something new to see
And you just gon' keep hatin' me
And we just gon' be enemies
I know you can't believe
I could just leave it wrong
And you can't make it right
I'm gon' take off tonight
Into the night....


In the night, I hear 'em talk,
the coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road, he lost his soul to a woman so heartless...
How could you be so heartless?
Oh... How could you be so heartless?

thankyou for caring Greg.x

50 things I've done.

1)Have been forced to stretch so far i could barely walk the next day.

2)Been hit in the face with a hockey ball, and still be playing half an hour later.

3)Knelt on the floor to measure my skirt length.

4)Had a pillow fight, and broken a pillow.

5)Considered killing myself(in German)

6)Considered killing several other people.

7)Broken up a bitch fight.

8)Accidentally phoned the police at a mates house.

9)Got so drunk I walked into a table and didn't notice.

10)Thrown up my stomach lining.

11)Told someone I loved them and meant it.

12)Told someone I loved them and not meant it.

13)Been tripped by someone, and fallen into a locker.

14)Winded someone, and then hit my head into the edge of a locker.

15)Accidentally fallen down the stairs, and ended up in the splits.

16)Convinced someone I owned a castle.

17)Laughed so hard I collapsed.

18)Had a blood test 4 times in a month.

19)Not eaten in 3 days, and not been hungry.

20)Been told by someone that they have a girlfriend, after getting off with them.

21)Been told that people only like me because of my boobs.

22)Been told that someone would trust me with their life.

23)Cried for about 15 minutes because of a blog.

24)Listened to Usher,Katy Perry and Blondie, in a row, and sung along to them all.

25)Watched the NumberJacks, and thought "What happened to the Teletubbies?"

26)Laughed at someone being hit in the head with a dart.

27)Laughed at a mate getting concussion.

28)Told my maths teacher he was an idiot, and got an afterschool.

29)Been told I have no hip bones.

30)Had my whole school uniform stolen.

31)Been told to stop flirting.

32)Been told my ipod is too loud.

33)Got angry, and thrown my phone on the floor.

35)Had a pen fight...and lost.

36)Sat next to someone for a year, and still not known their name.

37)Asked if i was going out with my best mate(who is male.)

38)Been given a leaflet in town...for pole dancing.

39)Had a fake fight with my best mate.

40)Made someone cry and regretted it.

41)Knocked my best mate out with a charity pot.(by accident)

42)Not revised for a test and still got full marks.

43)Dressed like a prostitute.

44)Slapped someone for making my friend cry.

45)Sung really loudly in the middle of school.

46)Been screwed over by a guy, and cried for an hour.

47)Gone to 6 funerals in a year.

48)Felt safe, just because of the person hugging me.

49)Set up my best mate, and succeeded.

50)Loved someone so much it hurt.

GREG

Just wanted to say...

You are the best friend ever.

And I will never ever leave you.

Unless you want me to.

I know several people who agree with this.

I wouldn't have you change for the world.

LOVE YOU.x

SONG I LOVE.xx

I love this song.

Officially.

She is such a good singer/songwriter.

And i would have to agree with her.

Especially with one line.

The Fear by Lily Allen.

I want to be rich and I want lots of money
I don’t care about clever I don’t care about funny
I want loads of clothes and fuckloads of diamonds
I heard people die while they are trying to find them

I’ll take my clothes off and it will be shameless
‘Cuz everyone knows that’s how you get famous
I’ll look at the sun and I’ll look in the mirror
I’m on the right track yeah I’m on to a winner


I don’t know what’s right and what’s real anymore
I don’t know how I’m meant to feel anymore
When do you think it will all become clear?
‘Cuz I’m being taken over by The Fear

Life’s about film stars and less about mothers
It’s all about fast cars cussing each other
But it doesn’t matter cause I’m packing plastic
and that’s what makes my life so fucking fantastic

And I am a weapon of massive consumption
and its not my fault it’s how I’m programmed to function
I’ll look at the sun and I’ll look in the mirror
I’m on the right track yeah we're on to a winner


I don’t know what’s right and what’s real anymore
I don’t know how I’m meant to feel anymore
When do you think it will all become clear?
‘Cuz I’m being taken over by The Fear


Forget about guns and forget ammunition
Cause I’m killing them all on my own little mission
Now I’m not a saint but I’m not a sinner
Now everything's cool as long as I’m getting thinner

I don’t know what’s right and what’s real anymore
I don’t know how I’m meant to feel anymore
When do you think it will all become clear?
‘Cause I’m being taken over by fear

(L)

xxx

question?

Just a random question....

would you get annoyed if your best mate went out with/fancied your brother/sister?

Cos i dont think i would but who knowss...

x

:|

Yay Obama.

Woopdidoo.

Guess what happened today?

Hywelly was actually nice.

Apparently ive lost weight

Hes such a nice kid...no?

what else happened...?

nothing really.

i dont know why i even bother anymore.

school is gay.

i feel like crap.

thats the general message for today.

FOR YOU...YEAH YOU FREDDIE!

FREDDIE!

You are my mate.

SOOO :D.

And you are tres special.

so you get a blog to yourself!!!

:)

x

And you think you're strange...

This is how my mind works.

My brother is talking to the X-box.

Or is he talking to me?

Well if he is i dont actually care.

Havent played Xbox in years.

Must get Davids live ID at some point.

Shit, ive got to choreograph that tomorrow.

I wonder if greg is staying as well.

Or shall i go sainsburys?

I owe Sope sweets.

He's still shouting at the X-box.

I think he's playing FIFA 09.

thats a well boring game.

like that film my dad was watching earlier.

I was watching a film earlier.

Heath Ledger is FINE.

shame he's dead.

Haahahaa we were talking about that earlier.

And greg said the guy from Twilight wasnt fit.

He's clearly insane.

Cos that guy is FINE as wel.

I wonder why my brother needs 3 types of Lynx?

Surely he's only gonna use one.

Although it does smell Lush.

Like bacon.

Although last time i ate bacon I puked.

the last time i puked i threw up the stomach lining.

that hurt.

i should probably eat more.

im not hungry though.

i hate breakfast.

Coooookie Crisp....next time their mine!

HAHAHA that wolf thing was odd.

i miss the sugar puffs guy though.

Or there's Tony....LOL.

ogod i hate that word.

So does Rosie.

Oooooh i have a dance lesson tomorrow.

Shit where are my shoes?!?

Oh...its ok their in my locker.

im thirsty.

damm theres no more smoothie.

That was yummy.

Im tired.

I should sleep soon.

Angus' alarm clock is well strange.

Anyway...BED.

Shit i need to find eclipse.

where the fuck is it???

oh its in the bookcase,

i think.

Lets go now.

i cba to read through wat i just wrote.

oh well.

BYE!x

SMILES

I felt I should make a happy blog for once.

Well, sort of.

I have decided I'm going to live for today.

So that if I died tomorrow, I would be happy.

So that means, I will always be honest. Even if it will make someone hurt for a while.

So that everything would be sorted, if you get me.

No one will be left thinking-" i wonder what we were going to talk about" etc.

So I'm sorry if you get affected by that.

But I'm just gonna do what i reckon is right.

Laters...

 

random thoughts.

Some more things that I was thinking about...

Just a warning this is going to go of in random tangents.

why is it that a girl can never just be friends with a guy, without the whole year thinking they are going out?

See, to me, this seems a bit stupid.

Cos i have so many guy friends, that i must be some kind of serial bigamist according to some twats.

And another thing...

I should feel really happy at the moment.

Because even if i feel a bit sick, worse things have happened...right?

I mean, I haven't got a lethal virus (i hope) and i have food, so I'm not gonna starve.

But here i am feeling really sorry for myself for no apparent reason. 

Its not like i should be depressed.

Sooooo many good things are right in my life.

My parents are neither divorced, nor likely to get divorced.

I haven't been to a funeral in about 6 months.

My bezzie is really happy, therefore je suis also tres bon.

I have dropped loads of weight, and am nearly at my target weight.

None of my friends are unhappy (if you are...WHY HAVEN'T YOU TOLD ME ALREADY!!!)

I am not horribly disfigured, or anything...

See when you listen to the news....I just think...How desensitised is our generation?

You hear a newsreader talking about the death toll in the Gaza strip.

But then every one's talking about Jonathan Ross coming back.

WHERE IS THE FUCKING SENSE?

People die every single second.

I hate that fact.

"Every time you click your fingers, someone just died"

I guess I'm just a pessimist.

I always see the bad things.

I wish i didn't though.

Just thinking back...although i haven't known him that long, i don't think Ive ever seen Greg angry or upset.

I don't know if that's cos he doesn't get upset or cos it doesn't show.

But i hope its not the latter.

ALSO.

I'd just like to say.

whoever you are.

I don't care if you're a stranger.

If you have a problem share it with me.

Cos i find helping other people helps me for some strange reason.

So yeah.

I don't care what its about.

Could be anything.

I will try my best to help.

And even though I'm really stupid,

I'm actually quite good at listening and helping apparently.

So give it a try.

I wont tell.

PROMISE.

One more thing.

If I die tomorrow.

I'll miss you.

And yes i would take a bullet for you, so don't think I'm lying. Cos I'm not. :)

Spur of the moment thing.

Have you ever genuinely thought about dying?

It sounds like a pretty morbid question, but its one that's surprisingly relevant.

There are quite a few people i would seriously consider dying for, simply because without them I would be pretty lost.

I thought I'd make a list, just to see.

1. Family. Because no matter how much i complain, I've got nicer parents than some.

2. The friends:

a) Ellen.

b) Jazz.

c) Parve.

d) Greg.

e) Husband.

f) David.

g) Labo.

h) Rosie.

i) Nicole.

j) Hutty.

k) Pooley.

l) Sope.

A few people might wonder why they are on that list, but they shouldn't. 

I would take a bullet for any of these people, because they make me me.

On a rather different note, what would you do if your best friend/boyfriend etc... died?

Mr Smith is always going on about that mate of his who died and we all laugh at him, which if you think about it is really harsh.

I know that if any of those people died, i miss them more than anything.

 Because if Ellen wasn't here, who would tell me how to sort my life out? 

If Jazz wasn't here, who would tell me when I was out of order? 

If Parve wasn't here, who would tell me she loved me every day? 

If Greg wasn't here, who would make me laugh even when I felt like crying?

If Husband wasn't here, who would make me laugh about the most ridiculous things, and sing Hairspray with me? 

If David wasn't here, who would i have silent conversations with? 

If Labo wasn't here, who would i dance with, without caring what i looked like? 

If Rosie wasn't here, who would I act like a fool with in tutorial? 

If Nicole wasn't here, who would I bitch endlessly with? 

If Hutty wasn't here, who would help me get through German? 

If Pooley wasn't here, who would make my bezzie really happy and therefore me really happy? If Sope wasn't here, who would sort me out and tickle my feet?

So that's why you people are on there. There are several people i haven't put on here, for various reasons but i love them as well.

If you're wondering why I wrote this blog, i just happened to be thinking about it.

It happens when you feel ill.

Thank you.

This is me saying thank you and i'm sorry.

Its a bit to hard to explain. But I'm really sorry, to everyone for various reasons.

I'll try harder. Promise.

This made me cry. So thank you.

Greg

Hannah: Summer 2008 was probably the first time she'd ever talked to me. It was only cos there was the strangest mix of people EVER on that trip and i was one of the normal ones(cough cough). She's super cool and also probably the stupidest person ive ever met. (To prove how little i know of her i only found this out recently) she used to not eat. She thought she was fat. She is one of the prettiest girls ive ever met in my life and she thought she was fat. How, god only knows. I luv her to pieces now cos she is hilarious. She is so easy to take the mick out of but then she just calls me gay and its even. She is also really impressive cos she has taken so much crap from people like Skings Howli and peeps like that and just shrugged it of and continued being her. She will also be one of the most sanctioned people i'll ever meet if she continues at this rate. And don't ask me if ive got morals cos thats her decision.

Because people like that are what you keep smiling for. I'll be more optimistic now. And stop being so self-centered all the time.

If only...

I am an idiot.

I have never been so confused in my life.

I don't think people actually realise that, yes i know I'm an idiot.

And although I know perfectly well it is impossible, you have no idea how much I want to turn back time...

Hutty's Party.

1) I WOULD NOT have broken my promise to someone who is a really good friend.

2) I WOULD NOT have got completely off my face.

3) I WOULD NOT have been so self-absorbed that I forgot to help out a mate who needed it.

4) I WOULD NOT have  done anything that arose from me being completely off my face.

School.

1) I WOULD have told him myself, because i would have deserved how much it would have hurt me to see the shock.

2) I WOULD have made up my  mind sooner, rather than causing everyone so much annoyance.

3) I WOULD have had the courage to reply instead of having his mate tell him, without me knowing.

4) I WOULD have the strength to show my feelings, instead of worrying about people who don't matter.

Now.

1)  I WILL think about others not myself, but in the long-run not the short-term.

2) I WILL stop whatever it is that i do, to people i genuinely like.

3) I WILL stop confusing happiness with whatever it is I feel.

4) I WILL stop not eating, because it just makes them worry.

5) I WILL listen to the people that matter, not those that i think do.

6) I WILL appreciate how much I have, and how little others do.

7) I WILL NOT let people get affected by my feelings,whatever they may be.

I promise I will try to do all these.

"At the end of your life you realise, the only think you ever had were the people you loved and the people who loved you."

Because I truly believe that.

xxx